guitar smash
20101227 @ 11:31 PM
*gasps* Guess what, I broke my vow and had Black Pepper Chix again. So much for not eating it in a month -.- I just had to have it in just 8 days. Now I feel like a fat monster it's not even funny. I don't get it, really. The more I say I want to lose weight, the more I eat. Right now though, I'm thinking it's because of my period that's coming which is the reason for my huge appetite. Still?Anyway it's been awhile since I last blogged, I realised. Sorry for the short absence :)
So 2011's coming reeeeeally near. It's less than a week left considering the fact that it's past midnight now = Tuesday. This pretty sucks. Reality just hit me that I ask myself this, "What am I doing with my life?" Shit.
I am jealous okay, that most of others of the same age as me need not report for school in January next year. Sometimes I imagined myself in Express stream. I think I'd just die but what's the use of saying all of that now? God have made my life this way, I chose it to be this way. So be it.
That brings me to my next point. I have friends who have teachers as their parents. Then I thought to myself, if my parents were teachers, I wonder how drastic a change my life would be? Maybe I'd be many times smarter. Or maybe not so much of that, I bet it's more to discipline. Very strict discipline, at that. Because right now I think my parents are giving me too much freedom that I took advantage of and became a very, very lazy girl.
And that brings me to another point! Special, Express, NA and NT. I still don't get why the need to have different streams? I heard in my mum's time, they only had one stream. Which was NA. Which also meant normal. So why not stick with being normal and not make the others be abnormal? Okay I don't mean it in literal but, seriously? Don't you know that being in different streams, you are in a way separating the bond? It's really weird to be around each other, you know. It's like Special/Express versus NA/NT. And there'll never be a game over. Or so I assume. I've been noticing especially this year, the year when I passed by a lot of different people, that we don't know each other. We may be in the same school, wearing the same uniform, singing the school song every Monday together, singing the National anthem everyday, celebrating school events together, but - we don't know each other. How sad is that?
That brings me to my next point. I have friends who have teachers as their parents. Then I thought to myself, if my parents were teachers, I wonder how drastic a change my life would be? Maybe I'd be many times smarter. Or maybe not so much of that, I bet it's more to discipline. Very strict discipline, at that. Because right now I think my parents are giving me too much freedom that I took advantage of and became a very, very lazy girl.
And that brings me to another point! Special, Express, NA and NT. I still don't get why the need to have different streams? I heard in my mum's time, they only had one stream. Which was NA. Which also meant normal. So why not stick with being normal and not make the others be abnormal? Okay I don't mean it in literal but, seriously? Don't you know that being in different streams, you are in a way separating the bond? It's really weird to be around each other, you know. It's like Special/Express versus NA/NT. And there'll never be a game over. Or so I assume. I've been noticing especially this year, the year when I passed by a lot of different people, that we don't know each other. We may be in the same school, wearing the same uniform, singing the school song every Monday together, singing the National anthem everyday, celebrating school events together, but - we don't know each other. How sad is that?
'Nuff said.
RIGHT NOW I'M SO ANNOYED I FEEL LIKE BASHING SOMEONE UP.
Don't get me wrong, I don't feel like bashing someone up because of what I just ranted. It's because of a whole different matter. Damn.