when things get emotional
20101007 @ 7:19 PM
This is seriously not a good time to feel like this, Heart. Get a hold of yourself, please. Do not let anything bring you down. I know there may have been the ups and downs in life but just because you feel like people are ignoring you, like how you feel on your birthday this year, JUST GET A GRIP AND MOVE ON. Life has to go on and you have papers to sit for tomorrow. What's worse, it's a Mathematics paper. Please don't be like this. Please straighten out your thinking and don't feel so insecure. Don't fucking think too much, will you? Just stop it. Stop feeling things that are not necessarily true and think seriously fucking too much. Leave it. Leave everything behind and look forward to the papers. Just afew more to go. Imagine if all of this never happened. Imagine you never hung out with the people you did and be close to them like how you are now. Don't fucking care about anyone else no more. Because you know they don't appreciate the things you do so what's the point?
Anyway since you've deactivated your fucking FB account now, it somehow lifted quite a weight in your heart, doesn't it? Now you don't need to feel paranoid if someone wrote bad things on your wall and people read it that's why they ignored you or something. And now you don't have to stalk people, look at their photos and read stuff and know things that you don't favour.
The feelings'll go away if you let them. Go and study to distract yourself. Have a Maths marathon today for hours. Just think ONLY about Maths tonight to tomorrow. After that, after Malay P2, go study POA and have fun shopping. Retail therapy, okay?
And then Saturday will come sooner than you know it and you'll be having fun. With the familia. You see, things aren't that bad as you see it as. Everything'll be fine. Everything's good. This is temporary. It's for awhile to test how strong you are. Allah is testing your patience. You can get through this.
Everything will come to an end.
Labels: emo moments, feelings, unhappy