Apparently I'm still awake. I know it's late and I know you have to get enough rest especially when you're gna sit for a test the next day but hey, at least I've got my other works done. I've always liked doing language like Eng and MTL than Maths or Science anyw so it doesn't matter haha.

Yeah this is what I accomplished and it was taken a minute after I clicked to new post.

& this was the other time. When I had Green and Blue watching me do work :D

Labels: random, shitzzz

There's practically nothing interesting to blog about for the past few days. I want to write something but I just can't seem to know exactly what.


Which reminds me. I had a dream some nights ago about crying non-stop just because I lost to a couple of my friends. It was like a nightmare because I know I'm better than them. It's just. Lack of revision or something that went wrong somewhere. And I needed to prove them wrong. Or at least myself.

Like the subject AMaths too. I know I've not been good at it but I believe I'm improving. I chose to. I don't want to waste my parents' money that has been spent for the books and disappoint them. Of course struggling to get through it isn't the best part at the end of the day and I admit I don't remember the last time I felt accomplished when doing Maths.
But I always thought, I can do it. I'm capable of doing it. I'll get through it.

Now I don't know whether it's selfishness or ego and in denial that's preventing me to making the right decisions.

Labels: emo moments, life, shitzzz, studies

I can't be bothered anymore.

Labels: emo moments, life, shitzzz

I'm feeling pretty scared right now. Or fkd up. The way people handle things are different simply because everyone is different. But you can change it by giving others chances, letting them win for once if you can't bear to face the consequences. At least I'm like that. I hate fights, lazy to get into arguements and couldn't be bothered to face the person whose face I dislike so much that I can just rip them apart into blood and flesh. At least by ignoring it, life is back to normal. Ever so cheerful and filled with rainbows and flowers blooming. Isn't it better? You don't get sins on your part as well.

Too bad people fail to see what I'm seeing because they've got a bloody big egg on their bloody small head that's called E-G-O.

Sure it's good to put yourself infront of others at times but it really depends on the situation, you know. Use your brains or better off mind your own business if you don't know who you're dealing with.

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