I love going for talks. It may get really dull and bore the hell out of me but for some, it's really useful and worth going for. Hence, it depends.

Labels: family, happiness, life, love, school, studies, thoughts

A quickie!

I'm here because I just had to do some school stuffs using the laptop so I figured I'd spend a little time to update as well :)

School's been good. I can feel the pressure creepin' up on me already. Frankly, I have really high hopes for myself. And I don't know whether it's a good thing or otherwise. Maybe it's good, so that I can aim and work hard to achieve my goals. But on the other hand, I don't want to be disappointed because I jolly well know that expectations lead to disappointments. Either way, I'll work hard nevertheless. Afterall, I can only plan and work hard towards something that I want, but God determines it all.

Labels: happiness, life, school, studies

I know it's the third day already but Happy New Year anyway :) I felt like sleeping through 2010 and wake up in 2011 but then I realised that'll be no fun so I just remained awake haha.

Before I start, here's just a 'lil something to share. I got this off Jason Mraz's blog. I don't stalk him, I found his blog from Twitter. So here's what he wrote, "When expectation fails, you're rewarded with good old-fashioned upset. But when a possibility fails, all you're left with is more possibility. This Possibility vs. Expectation is a simple transformative tool that can keep you from bloodying your knuckles when something goes awry." I love how true and powerful those statements are :)

Anyway just so you know I'm currently using my sis' laptop. I didn't want to neglect this space so I know I just had to update. And with my laptop? It'll be such a hassle. Too many wires, takes too much time. See that is why I need a new one. It was originally my sis', mind you. It has been about what, 6 years? It doesn't even have webcam. Sad to the max. But I'll wait. I'm actually waiting for Poly. That'll be in about 2 years but oh well, they say good things comes to those who wait :)

Yesterday was a good day! I was home alone for almost the whole day and became such a good girl by cleaning up the mess that I didn't finish two days ago. I feel so organized now! It definitely was hell during the process of cleaning up. I hate dust so much. It makes me sneeze. And sneeze. And get flu. And sneeze. And - you get my point.

But the good side wasn't all good really. I haven't got my homeworks done. And I don't feel anything right now. I don't feel scared, nor guilty. It feels weird but I think it got to me that I shouldn't do something that I don't want to do. I mean, what's the point of doing something just for the sake of doing? It's not like doing homework can get me As on my report card. Yes, I understand it still helps in a way because by doing homework, I practice. Still, don't talk to me about it during the holidays okay? Talk to me when school reopens. Talk to me about homeworks tomorrow.

On a much happier note, I shopped today. With my very first pay! I feel so happy :) Now I should get off and get some sleep. The bedsheet's changed about 5 mins ago. A pretty neat start for 2011.

Hopefully everything goes well tomorrow! It's gonna feel soooooo weird to not see the usual faces i.e same batch, Sec 4E and 4NT '10. Sigh, I miss all of it already!

Labels: happiness, hell, life, school, studies

Hello everybodyyyyy. *imitates Barbarella* Hahaha okay that was bloody random. (Hey say it with a British accent, like how Harry Potter would say it. It sounds nicer. BLOODY.) I bet u did that after reading HAHA.

Damn, I sidetracked a lot. So anyway, did I mention that I was craving for KFC's black pepper chicken badly yesterday? Like I really, really, really wanted to try it. Well I did actually, once at Bugis Village. But I think the person gave me the original one. Yeah, wtfasdkljshfvm. I let the matter rest, of course. I didn't really care at that time.

But today, I made sure the person behind the counter gave me the right one! And she did. So I got home, still dressed the same way when I got out of my house and ate to my heart's content :) I felt like a pig. Oh well.


I had these 2 pieces of chicken + coleslaw + cheesefries. *shakes head* Now that I've satisfy my crave, I shall be a good girl and not eat fastfood in a month :) That should be easy. Heh I refuse to say junkfood because I'll definitely need my Calbee potato chips whenever!

Labels: chocolates, fat, life, random, studies

I'm sick and tired of the words that play in my mind. When I'm busy, or don't have much time in my hands, suddenly A LOT of things come to mind and I want to do this and that. When the time comes, when I actually have TIME in my hands, I don't know what to do with it. Suddenly that to-do list disappears. I thought of writing it somewhere though, like in a planner? But I guess I don't know where to start. And it's not like I'll be loyal to the planner anyway.

Labels: random, studies, thoughts

Okay this' gonna be a short one!

Firstly, I hate you. And you. And you. For making me wait and for fooling me.

Secondly, I am sooo proud of myself that I survived 2 hrs of POA today and I went for CCA since forever :) Haha I think I'll be coming more often because there's seriously alot of events lining up for us!

Thirdly, I love you. And you. And you. For being there for me and you're probably the only one I'm willing to waste my texts on. Strange, eh?

Labels: love, random, studies, you

Right. So I apologise to those who've come here numerous times only to find the same exhausted post all over again!

(If anyone ever comes here, anyway) (Damn, that is such a common phrase) (But really, whoever, me love you okay) (Okay back to posting-)

I've not been busy. Just a little lazy (and I've said this before, time and again). Man, I love to complain :)

Sept hols are ending. I'm not done with Maths because I don't have a bloody fulscap/foolscap. It's frustrating but it is what it is. I couldn't get out to get new ones because shops are not opened at 7am. Not until now. So I'll most prolly get off soon and buy a whole stack of it :) 10's a nice number.

Then I needn't get so tense everytime it finishes.

Side note. This may be the second last post (last would be a goodbye *sad music on the background*) because I'm listening to Chris B's Say Goodbye in Ziq's blog. There's never a right time, you know. Just never...

FTW. Reason being, I've moved to another island :) Far far away from here...

K 'nuff said. Take care all!

Labels: life, love, random, studies

I found out that the calculator is really an awesome thing. Especially after we learnt Binomial Theorem during Maths today. Of which, I realised I learn it before at tuition a looong time ago. That's why I didn't care :)

Doing Maths at home isn't helping. I foresee myself doing more of it in school from now on haha.

Haziq, your dream was hilarious ;) Get well soon, Sayang!

Labels: laughters, shoutout, studies

Today was a pretty challenging one. But I'm persevering for I keep reminding myself that it's a test, a test and a test. I won't be surprised if there'll be more to come anyway. I CAN GET THROUGH THIS. InsyaAllah :)

On a lighter note, I'm quite satisfied with the results so far. Got a strong feeling that I'm going to fail the same old subjects, though. Oh well.

Labels: school, studies

Shall take today as a lesson. From today onwards, I'll have Vit C more often. Because I can, and because I need it :D

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I FINALLY PASSED. I'm really thankful for what You have shown me. And for Your guidance. Alhamdulillah.

Labels: random, school, studies

There's practically nothing interesting to blog about for the past few days. I want to write something but I just can't seem to know exactly what.


Which reminds me. I had a dream some nights ago about crying non-stop just because I lost to a couple of my friends. It was like a nightmare because I know I'm better than them. It's just. Lack of revision or something that went wrong somewhere. And I needed to prove them wrong. Or at least myself.

Like the subject AMaths too. I know I've not been good at it but I believe I'm improving. I chose to. I don't want to waste my parents' money that has been spent for the books and disappoint them. Of course struggling to get through it isn't the best part at the end of the day and I admit I don't remember the last time I felt accomplished when doing Maths.
But I always thought, I can do it. I'm capable of doing it. I'll get through it.

Now I don't know whether it's selfishness or ego and in denial that's preventing me to making the right decisions.

Labels: emo moments, life, shitzzz, studies

I guess distractions got in the way but I've got no one else to blame except for myself. Totally hated the fact that everything became a blur and much thinking was needed to be done. It was a wake-up call. Really.

Thank you, God.

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Anyway, it was the finals today. We didn't win for TOW but all's fine, we did our best and it was already good enough that we made it to the finals :) Overall, sports carnival earlier today was quite a bomb la. & congrats hidhir. Go on that extra mile and make us proud! (lol)

Labels: activities, flashback, life, school, studies

I saw a girl sitting down having her breakfast alone. She had so many things in mind. What she wanted to be, what she've planned to do, what she wanted in life. She hated the fact that she've let her parents down. Her teachers, her friends, and even herself. She was disappointed.

Therefore she decided not to go to her tuition because to go or not to go, it doesn't make much of a difference.

Labels: life, studies

To be frank, I wanted to update until later in the night since I'll be going out. Then again, I can be quite a forgetful person haha.

SA1's finally over and I'm glad it is. I've never felt so distracted before and it really has been a long tiring week. I can now put my mind at rest and have fun! Aren't sure if I deserve it cos I don't think I did my best but shall worry about that later anyway :)

Discovered something ytd. ANXIETY IS EVIIIL.

Okay till then, I shall leave you with the lyrics by Taufik and Hady's KepadaNya. It carries a very deep meaning and that's the reason why I'm in love with it since the second I heard its chorus. Do listen to the song!

Wahai manusia
Sedarlah dirimu
Hidup di dunia, hanya sementara
Dekatkan diri padaNya

Biar terluka
Hapuskan sangsi mu
Ialah petunjuk buat segalanya
Arahkan diri padaNya

Not to forget, I wanna say thanks sooo muchiez to those who were concerned about me. I'm doing fine and don't you worry ;)

Labels: fun, life, music, studies

So I'm back by *coughs* popular *coughs* demand. Just felt like ranting but I'm telling you this blog's not fully alive yet.

It's been exactly 31 days since I went on hiatus. Lots of things happened. One of it is the time when my Thai buddy came over and it was a hell load of fun. Just spending time with friends till late at night, making new ones, keeping in close contact with the current ones and all was an amazing experience. I'm not really going into details so yah.

To sum it all up: I lead a contented but at random times, depressing life. As human beings, we all make mistakes. And I dare say I'm not perfect.

By the way,


Finally!

Someone please tell me what's wrong.

Labels: back dead, life, studies

I especially hate it when my feelings get all stirred up, leaving me with no choice but to feel the insecureness sinking in. I guess it's just life cos I know I'm not alone. But yknw how when you feel it, you tend to get all emo and just wna be in another place, a whole diff environment to start anew. It sucks man. Okay stop ranting already, it's gna sound so draggy and annoying. XD

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So here's a few random stuffs;

• I wanna meet K agn and take a photo with him. Thinkg of him just makes me happy haha.
• Wanna graduate badly! (don't seem to have any specific reason for it so don't ask)
• I want to lose weeeeeight. (this' gna be a hard cos it's always easier said than done)
• I'm dying to meet people whom I haven't met for ages. Pri schmates to be exact!
• Gotta clear my closet which've got clothes piling up as high as Mt. Everest.
• Am starting to love A. Maths (bcos I understand).
• FLYYYYYYYY and run away from all the obstacles in life would be nice. :D

Today's not bad actly. Neither a happy nor a sad one - just the way I like it heee. K needa do the hmwrks alr so ta!

Labels: life, love, random, studies

OMFGGGG LOOK AT THE TIME NOW! I haven't even wash-up since I got back from school about 3 hours ago. Damn it, shall go off right aft thisss.

Anyway I'm leaving soon. Days've been practically the same but I'm veryyy disappointed of my Maths results but you know, heck with it cos what's done can't undone :D (See, I'm positive!) And my other results weren't as bad so I'm fine and I don't think I deserve to say "all my hardwork have been paid off,"? Well oh well.

Note to self: JUST ENJOY FOR THE NEXT WHOLE WEEK AND FORGET ABOUT IT.

Labels: studies

Screw A. Maths test! It was hard but surely nothing compared to Os. Wah I wonder how I'll do during the exam itself. Kk cannot think too much, must take one step at a time lol. I think the others felt the same way too la. Guess we'll be depending on the method marks or sth.

Reminiscing got to be one of the things I simply love to do. I was looking through the past pri sch/kindergarten class photos ytd and suddenly missed all the moments and people. Like, back to old days when you had nothing to worry about. Coz all you know was to have fun and laugh together with friends. :D

Then I came to realised, Kelvin was my ever first crush. In primary one!!! Can you believe it? Hahaha I still prefer chinese guys hmmm. K too much info.

I love it when the week's coming to an end! And I wish you people happy hearts' connectn day tmr. Spread the loveeeeeee. Bye.

Labels: laughters, love, studies

I swear I could easily be the laziest person on earth. Haha no lah, just been busy with all the subjects actl. That explains for the lack of updates. And it's been fun so far. Thank God!

Last weekend was great coz I became a good girl and finished the homeworks by Saturday. Special thanks to Shad for helping out. :D if it weren't for her, I'd be stucked with a Math qs for the whole day. (emphasise the 'A')

So the next day was family gathering/open house over at Kak Nora's new house. Very lovely house! Caught up with cousins except for Kak NJ and then it was to Johore. Usual stuffs like shopping done over there and visited my granddad at the hosp. Get well soon, Tok! You're a strong man, I know you can go through it. It's just a test from God. :)

There's A. Math test tmr. Gonna study now. Chiowz!

Labels: family, life, studies

Yesterday was supposedly a day for the WGNs to finish their homework but we got distracted by story-telling. We haven't had one since the school started anyway. So yeah, it was fun blabbering all kinds of nonsense with her :D We even spoke in an accent which really sounded like we're not from Singapore at all hahaha. We rock your world!


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I want Maths tuiton la. I do get headaches during A Math.. but I will neverrrrr drop it unless I seriously turn into a vegetable due to the stress. Yeah.

Labels: fun, school, studies, WGN