I can't believe I neglected this place, almost totally. Anyway I wanted to blog about the first book I read in 2011. It was A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks :)
I know there's a movie about it and I've heard about the story but didn't read the book. So I did after I came across it in the school library. It was for Eng oracy. Surprisingly I thought oracy was fun because similar to Show & Tell, all we had to do during Eng lessons was listen.
I admit I kinda expected how the ending would turn out like since I took a peek at the last chapt. Nevertheless, I thought twas an interesting book :) Goes out to all of you who likes a moving story. It'll be etched to your mind for awhile, but at least it's not some scary movie that's gonna haunt you, just enough to remind you that life's short; spend your days well.
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Besides that, life's been good. All praises to God.
I love going for talks. It may get really dull and bore the hell out of me but for some, it's really useful and worth going for. Hence, it depends.
My bro's school has camps every year for every level. I think most is at the start of the year kinda thing but there are others during the March/June holidays, etc. I wish our school had the same thing. It'll be good for us. The only time, perhaps, that'll make us reflect a lot upon everything that we've done.
So yesterday was the last day of his camp and there was a talk for parents as well as students. I accompanied my mum, not truly knowing what I'll be there for. The trainer had a good sense of humour and whatever he said wasn't lame or any of that sort, more to facts and reality so thumbs up for that. Moreover, he kinda knocked some sense into me. I was thankful I came.
Then the last part was the part that truly moved me. It was about appreciating people, appreciating your parents, and letting them know that you love them although you don't express it. Seri, if you're reading this, it was almost the same kind of talk that one of the Ustaz gave us during RYC. One by one, students volunteerily came up to say a few words, to express how sorry they feel when they scolded their parents, talked back, etc. They expressed their guilt and was being frank, telling their parents (who were present at the talk), about everything. Each and every problem they faced, etc. Everyone teared and that was what made the whole atmosphere a very saddening one. I can't help but to tear as well. I was truly, truly moved. It made me realise how lucky I was, how I had to make something happen instead of just waiting for it, how I want to do well for my studies after all that my parents/teachers have done for me. It was like a wake-up call.
Now, I'm down with a sore throat for no rhyme or reason. Which is sad, but cure-able duh. And I'm currently at RP with Fie, combining brains for the video. It'll turn out really well, I can see it. All of you shall wait and see :)
My daily look-out-and-dream scenery from where I sit.
First day of school.
I was frustrated for a while in the morning to know my pinafore was long and it felt weird. It's not me to like wearing short, revealing clothes of course. But I didn't like the pinafore in the first place because twas big, like in terms of width if not height. Though I know my mum re-altered it. Da hell, screw this part. Moving on!
So the first thing I saw when I entered school was a lot of Sec 1s standing around. I really wondered how my first day was like because I kinda forgot and it must've really been scary, no? Anyway I felt like a Sec 1 myself and felt more like it when I tried to log in and Access Denied! came up. *smacks head* But then of course, everything changed when I met the classmates! Happy and very excited to face the final year plus Os. It's seriously getting into me. Scares the shit out of me everytime I think about it.
And then the boring/tiring/body-achin' part was when we were at the hall. I sooooo dreaded Start Right workshop but in the end, I found it alright. A 'lil inspired after, to go all the way and study hard but, *shrugs* You never know. I might just drop to the floor and die. Ha.
And today's a good day :) Sure was for a second day haha. Hopefully tomorrow'll be average/fairly good as well! It's gonna be a long day.
I self-declare yesterday Butch Day. Why? Because all three people who served me was a butch.
First, I bought shoes. A guy in spectacles was supposed to serve me but I couldn't decide so I walked out of the shop. When I came back, a butch approached. The guy was still there, but he gave chance and let the butch served me. (I assume their job is commission-based.) Anyway everyone should know that I'm a very fussy person. That would be the only reason why I dislike shopping sometimes. Especially when I have to shop for stuffs that I need to try on. Like shoes. And shirts, maybe pants too. I'm indecisive and fussy like that. So I pitied my mum and sisters who had to follow me from shop to shop and wait for me try different shoes. I settled with one, that wasn't what I wanted at the very beginning but it's all right, I'm still a happy girl and contented :)
Second, was when I bought Dunkin' Donuts. I bought the 5 Free 1 and just as when I was about to pay, I realised the person behind the counter was a butch too. I'm like, WHUTTTTTT. By then it got to me, was it all just pure coincidence? I mean it sure was but what was God trying to tell me then? It was really freaky.
Lastly, was at Woodlands checkpoint. The person who checks the car boot. She was a freaking butch too.
I say, WHAT'S HAPPENING TO THE WORLD?
Don't tell me you don't find it weird. I have every reason to feel that way. I am so against the idea of liking the same gender. Yes I'm talking about lesbians and gays. Homosexual. I feel disgusted just thinking about it. I have friends who're homos and I don't really care much less want to understand how they lead their lives. I just mind my own business. To me, so long as they're nice to me and you don't create a fuss, we're cool.
So many things happening, so many things to plan (and unplanned, that's taking forever to happen), so many things to look forward to, so many things to face (in the near future that I'm obviously not prepared for), so many people changing (this, I don't really care), so many other so manys! UGH.
I didn't know life was this hard. I'm only sixteen. *sad face*
Okay today was great. The Hangs, Perempuan Punye! managed to complete the five scenes that is needed for the video. It was a lot of fun! All the dancing and laughing and camwhoring and kecoh that was neverending. We walked a lot hence our legs turned jelly and all everyone needed was a break. Which meant drinking and sitting HAHA. I'll upload the pictures on FB soon :)
Ah, another thing! We were all required to dress in an all-black attire so I wore something all-black (like literally) and I felt like a pure minah. Not gothic, mind you. It was like - I don't even know if there's any word to describe it HAHAHA. It just felt wrong and I was being so paranoid before I left my house. Maybe because of the leggings. But of course, after meeting the rest, it was like normal bcz they were all in black and I wasn't the only one in leggings!
Hang Ry just had to put on make-up for all of us so my face had eyeshadows and mosturizer and powder since God-knows-when. Twas all good though, everyone looked pretty and I love all of youuuuuuu.
Okay bye I need my sleep, my bolster, sleep, my bed, and my sleep :)
I'm sick and tired of the words that play in my mind. When I'm busy, or don't have much time in my hands, suddenly A LOT of things come to mind and I want to do this and that. When the time comes, when I actually have TIME in my hands, I don't know what to do with it. Suddenly that to-do list disappears. I thought of writing it somewhere though, like in a planner? But I guess I don't know where to start. And it's not like I'll be loyal to the planner anyway.
I haven't even freakin' read my book which I borrowed for about -- I can't even remember when! That's how LONG it has been, I guess? Hmmm.
Today is Friday the 17th already. What have I been doing? Having fun. What have I been doing that has something to do with studies? Nothing.
Because I have nothing else better to do. Because I thought I might just relive this blog for once. Because I think that at this point of time in my life, I should just rant like nobody's business. Because I miss having something to say to myself, be it as a reminder or just to let out the feelings and thoughts inside my head. Because I think it sucks to have a birthday just two days away (soon it'll be one) and not have any plans. Because I think I've gone bonkers and lost my drive to having fun, to go out and play, to laugh hard for the littlest things.
Because I really miss all of it. The people I used to hang out with. The people who I know as my friends. Where are you guys?
We watched this last Sunday during madrasah. I'm sharing this because I hope the non-Muslims could get to know a little bit of information about Ramadhan and hopefully, those who haven't been listening and fasting every single day for years now, would be reminded of how important it is.
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Oh did I mention that I simply love the holy month of Ramadhan? Because of so many reasons. For which one, is because I get to wake up very early. Meaning, there'll be time to study for a test or finish some undone homework while waiting to leave the house for school. You get to save money too. Maintain peace, relationships gets stronger for some, gain someone else's trust, start believing, start reflecting, make someone smile, and lots more!
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To feel the lack of loss of. To let go by. To fail to perceive, understand, or experience. To regret the absence or loss of.
DMTH was surprisingly good. I actually expected it to be scarier to the extent that I won't get to sleep last night but it's actually more to funny scary. I loved how the people in the whole cinema burst out laughing together and gasped at the same time. A relaxing movie, I must say :D Night ATM 2 was no better. It was an interesting movie and not really the kind I'd watch in the cinemas anyw. So next up, Transformers 2!
I'm back alive. It was sad but life has to go on (and I admit mine currently suck because of homeworks -.-). Good things always come to an end. Then again I believe it's because there's more to come. I'm obviously thinking rationally and hiding this feeling with high optimism lol.
The trip got to be the funniest and most memorable one ever. I had tonnes of fun and I really didn't want to leave. The hype during BBQ night was undescribable. The shopping throughout our stay, the laughters and noise, the long rides, the atmosphere, the kind of bond. Everything. It made the relationship closer and stronger. It's been so long since I laughed that hard and I miss it already. Everything.
Now it's back to reality. Oh how I wish I was invisible.
