Yay I finally settled for the right skin and did some changes to it. Mainly I wanted to have the time for the posts and archives. Well I wanted archives at first but I wanted the drop down box kinda thing and couldn't find the right codes so it's okay, I'll settle for this at the moment.

Labels: flashback, holidays, memories, miss, random

ON HIATUS.

I apologise for being such an ass at making decisions. I've always been. Just that this time, it's not my fault :D

There have been so many things on my mind recently, to be frank. I think it's unhealthy that I'm thinking alot too. I can feel it already. I hope I don't get sick! At least not anytime soon lol.

So there have been memories that I can't forget, but I forgave anyway because I'm nice like that :) Truth is, maybe I really had high hopes on you. Maybe I really thought that yknow, even if we won't be together, we'll be close friends. I didn't expect us to be in the situation we are right now. We don't talk anymore. At all. What are we now? Strangers? That was unexpected.

I've been spending most of my time in school. Like today. It's exhausting and I hate it how we have to endure no matter how much we're against it. Like cmon lah, there'll still be homework to be completed overnight. As if lessons in school aren't enough :(

Yes, I'm complaining. I will not - let me repeat - will not stop complaining. I can't live one day of not doing it. And I know you can't too :)

What's my lesson learnt? To never judge people too soon. Not by its cover, but too soon. But that's just me. I can try, though.

Labels: decisions, life, love, memories, miss, school, you

As promised, I shall blog about yesterday. A quick one!

Photoshoot at Marina Barrage was awesome. Our similar tops are so pretty and colourful that every photo taken is fabulouso :D I've also concluded that taking photos with the grass and sky are always beeeautiful.

The plan that took place weeks ago finally came. An outing with Nat that took us ages to make it happen haha. We had deep conversations that we haven't had for a long time (like seriously) and I enjoyed every minute of it. Tonnes of stories, smiles and laughter shared and we shall do this monthly from now on!


I thank you for the kick-ass hilarious and fun day, for trusting me, and or all that we've shared, it'll only be between us. Love you lots, Chemist! ;)

Oh, and something else. Unexpected, we saw my primary school friends and I swear I miss them. They were celebrating Fad's birthday and I guess all of them overtook me alrd :( I need to grooow. Anyway here's wishing you a blessed and awesome birthday, Fadeelah! :)

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Today, I fasted. Without waking up for Sahur, you have no idea how upset my stomach was. It kept on grumbling but I persevered through. Despite having smelled whatever food that very much tempted me, despite seeing someone drinking bubble-t, despite seeing the delicious-looking food on the cover of a cookbook I saw at the library, despite the crave I had for Starbucks, despite all of that; I GOT THROUGH IT.

I'm glad it did because it wasn't easy, what with my moodswings. You should really go away.

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Isman, your face is haunting me -.-

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Shit. Tomorrow's Monday. Another long day at school. Make that a dreadful week. Like last week. So many things are going to happen and lots of things are needed to be done!

Labels: birthday, Chemist, laughters, life, love, miss

Of security, assurance, perhaps?

Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact. -Henry James

Just another emotional breakdown.

I really need someone to really talk to at this point of time. Someone who I can really trust, someone who would just hear whatever problems I'm facing right now and have all the explainations and solutions to it. Maybe I should even make it clear and express my deepest feelings/regret which I've kept for a long time now, to the people who're concerned.

If only starting a conversation was that easy.

Labels: decisions, inspirational quotes, life, miss, unhappy