I hate how you search for something on Google and it gets directed to my blog. Like how my elder sis' typed in my younger sis' name and got directed to my posts back in 2008 -_-

I actually never thought this time would come. It's not like I hate animals or cats to be specific but I'm more of afraid. However, I should be glad that it's in a better place now. I know I'm making it sound like it's dead and it's only been with me for about exactly 24hrs but..

Labels: kitten, life, memories

Today was such a lazy Friday. I can't stress the word 'lazy' more.

I can't believe I wasted a day away. I was looking forward to the four-days break so much and now that it's here, I just wasted one of it away. It's not like I get anymore free days :( Tomorrow'll be packed, and I could hardly plan for anything on Sunday because 1) my madrasah's from eleven to two 2) by the time I reach home, I'd be too lazy to head out and it's not like I can get home late as there's schl the next day. So you see?

Labels: life

I am mad furious right now.

Labels: angst, life

I can't believe I neglected this place, almost totally. Anyway I wanted to blog about the first book I read in 2011. It was A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks :)

Labels: books, life, random, thoughts

I love going for talks. It may get really dull and bore the hell out of me but for some, it's really useful and worth going for. Hence, it depends.

Labels: family, happiness, life, love, school, studies, thoughts

A quickie!

I'm here because I just had to do some school stuffs using the laptop so I figured I'd spend a little time to update as well :)

School's been good. I can feel the pressure creepin' up on me already. Frankly, I have really high hopes for myself. And I don't know whether it's a good thing or otherwise. Maybe it's good, so that I can aim and work hard to achieve my goals. But on the other hand, I don't want to be disappointed because I jolly well know that expectations lead to disappointments. Either way, I'll work hard nevertheless. Afterall, I can only plan and work hard towards something that I want, but God determines it all.

Labels: happiness, life, school, studies

My daily look-out-and-dream scenery from where I sit.

First day of school.

I was frustrated for a while in the morning to know my pinafore was long and it felt weird. It's not me to like wearing short, revealing clothes of course. But I didn't like the pinafore in the first place because twas big, like in terms of width if not height. Though I know my mum re-altered it. Da hell, screw this part. Moving on!

So the first thing I saw when I entered school was a lot of Sec 1s standing around. I really wondered how my first day was like because I kinda forgot and it must've really been scary, no? Anyway I felt like a Sec 1 myself and felt more like it when I tried to log in and Access Denied! came up. *smacks head* But then of course, everything changed when I met the classmates! Happy and very excited to face the final year plus Os. It's seriously getting into me. Scares the shit out of me everytime I think about it.

And then the boring/tiring/body-achin' part was when we were at the hall. I sooooo dreaded Start Right workshop but in the end, I found it alright. A 'lil inspired after, to go all the way and study hard but, *shrugs* You never know. I might just drop to the floor and die. Ha.

And today's a good day :) Sure was for a second day haha. Hopefully tomorrow'll be average/fairly good as well! It's gonna be a long day.

Seven more months, two and just another two.

I'll survive, nevertheless.

Labels: happy, life, Os, school, thoughts

I know it's the third day already but Happy New Year anyway :) I felt like sleeping through 2010 and wake up in 2011 but then I realised that'll be no fun so I just remained awake haha.

Before I start, here's just a 'lil something to share. I got this off Jason Mraz's blog. I don't stalk him, I found his blog from Twitter. So here's what he wrote, "When expectation fails, you're rewarded with good old-fashioned upset. But when a possibility fails, all you're left with is more possibility. This Possibility vs. Expectation is a simple transformative tool that can keep you from bloodying your knuckles when something goes awry." I love how true and powerful those statements are :)

Anyway just so you know I'm currently using my sis' laptop. I didn't want to neglect this space so I know I just had to update. And with my laptop? It'll be such a hassle. Too many wires, takes too much time. See that is why I need a new one. It was originally my sis', mind you. It has been about what, 6 years? It doesn't even have webcam. Sad to the max. But I'll wait. I'm actually waiting for Poly. That'll be in about 2 years but oh well, they say good things comes to those who wait :)

Yesterday was a good day! I was home alone for almost the whole day and became such a good girl by cleaning up the mess that I didn't finish two days ago. I feel so organized now! It definitely was hell during the process of cleaning up. I hate dust so much. It makes me sneeze. And sneeze. And get flu. And sneeze. And - you get my point.

But the good side wasn't all good really. I haven't got my homeworks done. And I don't feel anything right now. I don't feel scared, nor guilty. It feels weird but I think it got to me that I shouldn't do something that I don't want to do. I mean, what's the point of doing something just for the sake of doing? It's not like doing homework can get me As on my report card. Yes, I understand it still helps in a way because by doing homework, I practice. Still, don't talk to me about it during the holidays okay? Talk to me when school reopens. Talk to me about homeworks tomorrow.

On a much happier note, I shopped today. With my very first pay! I feel so happy :) Now I should get off and get some sleep. The bedsheet's changed about 5 mins ago. A pretty neat start for 2011.

Hopefully everything goes well tomorrow! It's gonna feel soooooo weird to not see the usual faces i.e same batch, Sec 4E and 4NT '10. Sigh, I miss all of it already!

Labels: happiness, hell, life, school, studies

(via aceisbored)
Can we skip all the drama already? New year's here in exactly 7 hours and I'm tired of the hoo-ha about it. I understand it happens only after every 365 days but don't tell me I have to repeat myself and get all excited all my life? And write a summary of how great 2010 was, what I wish 2011 will be? I think I'm really just not in the mood. I wanna skip January as well. Everyone will be normal by then which is going to be a good thing.

I can already predict what will happen today, next year. People will say, "Enjoy life while you still can! 2012's going to be here. The world's going to enddddddd."

How pathetic.

I'm actually fine with having to welcome the new year with nothing special, just stayin' at home. I'm lucky enough to get to countdown last year at Khatib. If my dad were to allow me to countdown tonight, I'd be at Punggol East having a date with Taufik. But it's okay, I understand how a lot of incidents has happened out there and I'm fine with it. I've accepted that fact and hey, who says I'm alone? :)

Have a good time, folks.

Labels: new year

I self-declare yesterday Butch Day. Why? Because all three people who served me was a butch.

First, I bought shoes. A guy in spectacles was supposed to serve me but I couldn't decide so I walked out of the shop. When I came back, a butch approached. The guy was still there, but he gave chance and let the butch served me. (I assume their job is commission-based.) Anyway everyone should know that I'm a very fussy person. That would be the only reason why I dislike shopping sometimes. Especially when I have to shop for stuffs that I need to try on. Like shoes. And shirts, maybe pants too. I'm indecisive and fussy like that. So I pitied my mum and sisters who had to follow me from shop to shop and wait for me try different shoes. I settled with one, that wasn't what I wanted at the very beginning but it's all right, I'm still a happy girl and contented :)

Second, was when I bought Dunkin' Donuts. I bought the 5 Free 1 and just as when I was about to pay, I realised the person behind the counter was a butch too. I'm like, WHUTTTTTT. By then it got to me, was it all just pure coincidence? I mean it sure was but what was God trying to tell me then? It was really freaky.

Lastly, was at Woodlands checkpoint. The person who checks the car boot. She was a freaking butch too.

I say, WHAT'S HAPPENING TO THE WORLD?

Don't tell me you don't find it weird. I have every reason to feel that way. I am so against the idea of liking the same gender. Yes I'm talking about lesbians and gays. Homosexual. I feel disgusted just thinking about it. I have friends who're homos and I don't really care much less want to understand how they lead their lives. I just mind my own business. To me, so long as they're nice to me and you don't create a fuss, we're cool.

All three are Malays, fyi.

Labels: butch, freaky, thoughts

New year's nearing, the clock is ticking and I...... am scared HAHA. I'm not the least excited or feel any tinge of happiness at all that finally, 2010's leaving. I love this year. You can say I'm a little afraid of what's in for me next year. I'm not ready to face it. But of course, time doesn't wait for you and life moves on. So I guess whatever happens, happens.

Today was such a tiring day. It wasn't more of tiring, I think I just - wasn't in the mood and didn't feel well. Which made sense for the latter because we walked through the drizzling rain at Arab St and I admit I haven't been getting enough rest/sleep for these past few days. I must say it shouldn't be because of the number of hours. I slept for about 9 hours last night. Don't tell me that wasn't enough? I bet it's more to my bodyclock. Okay whatever it is, sleeping past midnight is bad enough for one's health!

So I finally uploaded the photos to FB. It was amazing HAHA Usually I don't upload that fast. Anyway it was really funny because right after I uploaded, FB went nuts for the next 10 minutes or so. People were suddenly liking and commenting the photos, i.e flooding my notifications. Even people who aren't in the album which included my primary school friend. Awkward. But nevertheless, I sure had fun being entertained and vice versa! I love it how I burst out laughing like nobody's business from photos/comments/anything at all :)

The photos actually decreased from 94 to 81 HAHA. And now I just deleted, or as FB says it, unfriended 51 friends. Why? Because I'm cool like that HAHA. Reason being, I dislike being friends with people who I don't really know and as long as we haven't talked, I don't know you. I don't mind schoolmates but people whom I've met through camps mostly (you know, post-camp madness when everyone adds each other on FB but doesn't talk at all -.-) and some of primary school friends that are extremely anon to me. HMMMM.

It's really late now. I don't know why I insisted to unfriend friends at a time like this and didn't wanna stop till I reached Z. I think it's just me, wanting to finish up where I started. But that's funny, how come it's not the same with homeworks?

Oh well.

Labels: happiness, life, new year, tired

I'm so mentally drained right now.

So many things happening, so many things to plan (and unplanned, that's taking forever to happen), so many things to look forward to, so many things to face (in the near future that I'm obviously not prepared for), so many people changing (this, I don't really care), so many other so manys! UGH.

I didn't know life was this hard. I'm only sixteen. *sad face*

Okay today was great. The Hangs, Perempuan Punye! managed to complete the five scenes that is needed for the video. It was a lot of fun! All the dancing and laughing and camwhoring and kecoh that was neverending. We walked a lot hence our legs turned jelly and all everyone needed was a break. Which meant drinking and sitting HAHA. I'll upload the pictures on FB soon :)

Ah, another thing! We were all required to dress in an all-black attire so I wore something all-black (like literally) and I felt like a pure minah. Not gothic, mind you. It was like - I don't even know if there's any word to describe it HAHAHA. It just felt wrong and I was being so paranoid before I left my house. Maybe because of the leggings. But of course, after meeting the rest, it was like normal bcz they were all in black and I wasn't the only one in leggings!

Hang Ry just had to put on make-up for all of us so my face had eyeshadows and mosturizer and powder since God-knows-when. Twas all good though, everyone looked pretty and I love all of youuuuuuu.

Okay bye I need my sleep, my bolster, sleep, my bed, and my sleep :)

Labels: fun, love, sleep, thoughts, tired

*gasps* Guess what, I broke my vow and had Black Pepper Chix again. So much for not eating it in a month -.- I just had to have it in just 8 days. Now I feel like a fat monster it's not even funny. I don't get it, really. The more I say I want to lose weight, the more I eat. Right now though, I'm thinking it's because of my period that's coming which is the reason for my huge appetite. Still?

Anyway it's been awhile since I last blogged, I realised. Sorry for the short absence :)

So 2011's coming reeeeeally near. It's less than a week left considering the fact that it's past midnight now = Tuesday. This pretty sucks. Reality just hit me that I ask myself this, "What am I doing with my life?" Shit.

Labels: life, school, unhappy

Hello everybodyyyyy. *imitates Barbarella* Hahaha okay that was bloody random. (Hey say it with a British accent, like how Harry Potter would say it. It sounds nicer. BLOODY.) I bet u did that after reading HAHA.

Damn, I sidetracked a lot. So anyway, did I mention that I was craving for KFC's black pepper chicken badly yesterday? Like I really, really, really wanted to try it. Well I did actually, once at Bugis Village. But I think the person gave me the original one. Yeah, wtfasdkljshfvm. I let the matter rest, of course. I didn't really care at that time.

But today, I made sure the person behind the counter gave me the right one! And she did. So I got home, still dressed the same way when I got out of my house and ate to my heart's content :) I felt like a pig. Oh well.


I had these 2 pieces of chicken + coleslaw + cheesefries. *shakes head* Now that I've satisfy my crave, I shall be a good girl and not eat fastfood in a month :) That should be easy. Heh I refuse to say junkfood because I'll definitely need my Calbee potato chips whenever!

Labels: chocolates, fat, life, random, studies

Ah, it's been sometime since I last uploaded pictures to Blogger! So anyway, today I baked Chocolate Cake :) It's my first time trying Betty Crocker's mix. I admit I was a little confused at first. It's like I wanted to bake brownies but realised if I wanted to, I don't need the mix. I should've bought the brownies mix or something instead haha. And for the first time, I did the frosting first before I did the cake.

It turned out well, of course. Just a little lop-sided on the top (and I blame the oven, my mum blames it too :P) but other than that, all's good (y)

This is the cake fresh from the oven! -


And here's the frosting, which I thought looked like mayo or mustard. The texture too haha.


And of course, after doing some final touches, here's the lovely cake :)


I thought twas so pretty I didn't even wanna cut it hahaha. Just let it be in the fridge! It's quite big, I might wanna give some to the neighbours or something. Doubt the family can finish it all soon though I bet my dad will gladly volunteer to be the one to finish all of it haha.

On a different note, I bought Hershey's yesterday from Resorts World Sentosa. My first time there and I gotta say, I was really fascinated by a lot of things last night. It was funny. I wanted to get something extraordinary but because I didn't bring enough money, I settled for Hershey's. Wanted to get Reese's too, but I decided not to. Then for all you know, my elder brother got home and I saw Reese's chocolates on the dining table HAHA. I call it FATE :P


All these eating of chocolates sure gonna get me fat than I already am. But oh well, I live to eat :P And I know I haven't been religiously cycling to the stadium and run like how I used to, I guess I'll make up for it - tomorrow? I think haha.

Oh and for the record, last night gotta be the most awesome for this holidays. Especially the part when I got home at 1 in the morning? HEHE It was epic. I felt good. The last time I got back that late, not with the familia, would be Countdown 2010. Long way back, aye?

And then I found out my 'lil sis got a new pair of footwear! From Crocs sale that happened in Expo yesterday? It's so cute I want one for myself too. But I bet it won't look as cute then HAHA.


Have a good Sunday everyone! x

Labels: baking, cakes, fun, happiness, memories

I'm sick and tired of the words that play in my mind. When I'm busy, or don't have much time in my hands, suddenly A LOT of things come to mind and I want to do this and that. When the time comes, when I actually have TIME in my hands, I don't know what to do with it. Suddenly that to-do list disappears. I thought of writing it somewhere though, like in a planner? But I guess I don't know where to start. And it's not like I'll be loyal to the planner anyway.

Labels: random, studies, thoughts

I am soooo sleepy right now. But look! I checked my stats and I got to know that I had visitors from Singapore, US, Germany, Austria, Italy, UK, Canada, Australia, Saudi Arabia and Belgium -- when I didn't even know they exist. Wow hahaha. But this is eversince I had this blog, not only recently so it's been like ages ago? :)

Labels: money, movie, sleep

Yay I finally settled for the right skin and did some changes to it. Mainly I wanted to have the time for the posts and archives. Well I wanted archives at first but I wanted the drop down box kinda thing and couldn't find the right codes so it's okay, I'll settle for this at the moment.

Labels: flashback, holidays, memories, miss, random

I'm really sad. Why can't you see that you play quite a huge role in our lives hence you've got to be someone whom we can highly respect and look up to?

Labels: family

Alright, I just had a quick flashback after reading through the blog archives. You know, this kind of thing? It's temporary. It's definitely a place for you to pour out your feelings and thoughts but have you ever wondered what next? At least for books you get to keep them but after awhile too, you'll stop writing and it'd be junk as you get on with your busy life. Perhaps only when you're packing up or free (like really free, like nothing better to do) that you'll take it out and write again as well as read the past but - well I don't know, you can never be sure.

Labels: flashback, happiness, ice clan, laughters, life